5 years...

Next week, I am going to Florida to take John home. I have been toting him around from state to state, house to house and without avail, unwilling to let him go. Finally, I am ready and so is he. This November 12th will be the 5 year mark and after all this time, I can say that I am truly in a mindset to place him where he has always wanted to be…in the ocean.

You know those daily reminders you receive via social media? Timehop…”On This Day” from Facebook…all letting you know what you did, on this day, 1, 2, 3, etc. years ago? As I approach the 5 year anniversary, I am reminded of what the days were like approaching his leave and what healing has looked like since then. I have been reading back through each blog, at each milestone and cannot believe the life I have had. I am reminded that this little life we have is truly magical and there is so much to be thankful for.

I am taking this journey to the beach with Michelle at sunrise…the one who has seen me through this the most. What an angel she is and I do not know what I would do without her. Zach will be waiting for me when I get home with open arms and I am forever grateful that he is supporting me through this release as my partner. I never thought I would find love again, much less a love like ours.

So, here I go…here we go. This chapter of my life will never be closed but rather complete. I am ready and so is he. From here on out, I will never stop speaking of what I have learned and what life was like then, but I will start to show you my life in a much different place with a much more level mindset. Thank you…it has been a hard yet beautiful 5 years…here is to many more, together.



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  1. UnknownOctober 30, 2015 at 11:23 AM

    I am so incredibly proud of you, my Hers. Your journey through this has been an honor to watch and be a part of. I love you. I'm going to hug you so, so hard.

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  2. Courtney NicoleOctober 30, 2015 at 11:28 AM

    God bless you Cat! ! You have taught me so much....I am so unbelievably happy for you and your new journey. .. some people never find a love like you and John had...and you give me hope! I wish you safe travels and a lifetime of happiness with Zach. You deserve it far more than anyone I know!!! God bless you on this journey to forever!!!

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  3. Courtney NicoleOctober 30, 2015 at 11:29 AM

    God bless you Cat! ! You have taught me so much....I am so unbelievably happy for you and your new journey. .. some people never find a love like you and John had...and you give me hope! I wish you safe travels and a lifetime of happiness with Zach. You deserve it far more than anyone I know!!! God bless you on this journey to forever!!!

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  4. UnknownOctober 30, 2015 at 12:03 PM

    There are some people who overcome something in a way that allows you to always admire them. You, my dear, are easy to admire.

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  5. UnknownOctober 30, 2015 at 10:44 PM

    Beautiful. Sending you love.

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  6. A. BaumannNovember 4, 2015 at 9:39 PM

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  7. natasha mortonNovember 6, 2015 at 10:32 AM

    Your heart is incredibly beautiful!

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