the first of 2011...
This post has been a long time coming. I have written thoughts down several times in the last eight months but erase every word at the end…or I start writing and distract myself from feeling the pain of opening up again, so I stop. It is funny how writing now is so hard, but in the thick of it all it was my saving grace. The words would pour themselves on the page and I had no filter. My fingers would start flying across the keyboard and it felt so natural…in the thick of it all. Since 2011 hit, I cannot find the words to save my life . I continue to get encouragement from family and friends to continue writing and even emails from complete strangers. I am reminded how it is an outlet and how good it is for me but again, cannot find the words. I know three words that cannot stop repeating themselves every single day…I miss you. Those words are spoken, thought of, and cried aloud every day. I miss you . Distractions have come to me in many forms since his passing…school, work, fri