a year in review...
“I want to stop feeling this way,” I cried, standing in our apartment kitchen with Zach. “I feel like we have said that too many times this year, Kitty,” he shared as he looked down at his feet in disbelief. It was the morning of Wednesday, November 28 th and we had just found out our baby no longer had a heartbeat at 8 weeks. It was my second appointment with my OB and they discovered our sweet baby was gone. Zach and I had been trying to get pregnant for almost a year and a half, thinking 2018 was a wash due to all the stress we had endured this year. We were elated when we found out we were pregnant in late October and it was, by far, the best day of our lives. I surprised him, standing in that very same kitchen, with a pregnancy test wrapped in an Amazon box I had found in the garage. His reaction was beautiful and to this day, I wish I had recorded it as I did the reaction of our family’s weeks later in Michigan and Canada. He had tears in his eyes and he just kept asking