guilt...
Grief . An incredibly strong statement with so many connotations attached to such a relentless word. It weighs a lot…it can sit on you like a ton of bricks…it can carry you through your time here on earth when you do not know what else to feel…it can push you down and hold you there…it can feel as if it is grabbing your heart and ripping it right out of your chest…it can come unexpectedly and make you feel so small…it can make you feel alone even when there are so many around you who love and care for you…it can be all you think about and even worse, all you dream about…it can break you down on your better days…it is grief. The past year and a half I have been feeling these things periodically and they were pretty much a part of my week to week, not day to day so much anymore. There were a lot more good days than bad but there would randomly be a reminder of loss and that word again…grief. As I would manage this grief, I would keep myself distracted and realized I was making great pr